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I cannot wait to find my voice and my vision again. It’s taking all of my effort to just physically exist, not doing anything but the basics, for most of this year. And I had to learn to be okay with that. To know that I am a beautiful human, even if I’m struggling to just do day to day life currently. My brain feels sluggish, like it’s hibernating, while protecting myself from the pain I’m constantly in. And the fear I am feeling during this health crisis I am in. Everything is dull and in a fog.

I just cannot wait to be and feel vibrant again. I just need to keep my nose above water, at the very least.